Thursday, January 27, 2011

allow me to introduce myself: part II (a tale in 2 parts)

Hello. My name is Molly and I’m a terrible blogger. Hi Molly.

Although I’m sure no one has noticed, I’m kicking myself for my unintended leave of absence…especially when I’m only 2 posts in to this new endeavor. For once in my life, I would actually like to finish something I start. These past few months have been insane, but aren’t they always? Not to mention, every time I sat down to write, I would find some sort of distraction to preoccupy myself with. I’m sure this is a remnant of my college days, when writing of any sort was the enemy. The purpose of this blog, in part, is to rediscover my love for writing, after a hiatus that has continued for far too long. Baby steps…

For months now, nearly every day, I would think to myself, “You really need to get on that whole blogging thing. Remember that? If you’re going to do it, just do it already.” And did I? No. In typical Molly fashion, I start a project, then completely fail in the follow- through. Now here it is, the end of January Two Thousand Freakin’ Eleven, and what have I accomplished on my blog, my secretive “big project?” Nothing.

I must admit, I’ve started writing this post half a dozen times, each time drawing a massive blank. When it comes down to it, I’m not really sure how exactly to introduce myself, or what to say, exactly. How do I be authentic, without being boring? I’m afraid to put myself out there and risk being judged.

Somewhat of a perfectionist by nature, I’m cautious of doing something unless I’m confident that I can do it right. I will envision something, and if the end result is anything less than excellence, I feel as though I’ve failed. Unfortunately, over the years this has led me take chances less and feel unconfident more. This is not the way I want to live my life. I spend far too much time focusing on the future, clinging to the past, and worrying how others perceive me that I lose my passion for the present.

So here we go. I’m finally going to do this whole blogging thing. Keep me accountable. Tell me what you want to know and what you think I should improve on. And for the love of god, can someone please show me how to get a personalize blog template and header? Oh, how I loathe the cookie cutter approach…

I will be back soon with another post, and possibly an “About Me” section. And that’s a promise.

life is (step by step)

Until then,